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10 'FAVORITE' Qs:
Abercrombie or Hollister? American Eagle
Mom or Dad? Mom deffinitly
Black or white? Hmmm depends on mood
Animal? Dogs and horses
Dogs or Cats? Dogs
Store? American Eagle
Sport? Football, Baseball, Volleyball
Year? Ooooh toughie....mmm probably the year when I spent 2 weeks in the redwoods with my cousins
Shorts or pants? Paaants...unless its really hot
Snakes or rabbits? Oooh um...both!
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10 'WOULD YOU' Qs:
Would you pretend to be someones bf/gf?
Eh...depends
Would you chug beer?
Yeah, cuz I cant stand the taste
Would you date someone you met online?
Umm :-D
Would you be my friend?
Who are youuuu??? lol
Would you kill someone? No, unless it was self defense
Would you live on another planet if possible?
I dont think so...unless this one blew up or something like that
Would you flip off the president?
LOL um no, I have more respect for the brave person who runs this country, even if they WERE Demorcratic
Would you run from the police?
NO! Im a scaredy cat
Would you go rock climbing?
Yes!!! I have been rock wall climbinb but I really want to try an actual ROCK lol
Would you be president if elected?
Naw...
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10 'DO YOU' Qs:
Do you smile a lot? Haha...um yes. At work Danielle calls me spritly Susan
Do you like photography? I like to take pictures? lol
Do you wear deoderant? NO! I stink ALL the time :-P Of course I wear deoderant!
Do you like taking surveys? When I'm bored
Do you drink enough water? Lately yes
Do you feel sad often? Um...not often
Do you still use film for cameras? nope
Do you eat meat? Mmmmm yes
Do you have a bad or good life? I would say its pretty damn good.
Do you like having your picture taken? Yes. I am a picture whore lol
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10 'HAVE YOU' Qs:
Have you ever had a crush on more then one person at the same time?
Ha yeah...its a bad idea
Have you ever been toilet papering? Why?
Yeah, it was one of the most scary experiences ever
Have you ever been in love?
Yes
Have you ever beat someone up? Why?
Naw
Have you ever driven a Ferrari?
Never had the pleasure
Have you ever been high?
Yeah
Have you ever sworn?
Fuck no!
Have you ever met a celebrity?
Ummm kind of?
Have you ever been late to work?
Yeah, once in a great while
Have you ever been dumped?
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I think I will take a break from the internet thing or livejournal thing...something
I dont have an appetite anymore
And my body is going numb
I didnt get chosen for the website which was totally cool becasue I do have to admit that Team 3 had a much better website
I need to stop shaking
I need to stop freaking out
This feeling of....freedom is crazy weird
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Wow, it feels weird to get back in the groove here. I woke up at like 7...YIKES I am glad I did though because I had to put my wash in the dryer because it was my only clothes lol. Did that and hung out on the computer for while. Around 9 I went to the bank to cash some checks. While there I noticed that my tired was going flat.GRR. I went to the gas station to fill it up, but it is really worrying me. I am going to have to get it checked in the next couple of days. I finally got to school and had a review day. The finals seem so much more less intimidating after break lol. Most of them are easier also because of the storms. Which speaking of storms we will probably get another one starting Thursday...ew. lol. Anyways after school I went home and had dinner with my dad. He made yummy spaghetti tonight. I got ready for work. Went to work and closed with the new Senior Manager, Reily. She is okay. She is trying to boss the store around and shock therapy us. Not gonna work cuz now we all dont like her very much. She reminds me a lot of me. I think thats why we are butting heads. Yikes! No Bueno!
Anyways. I am like the walking dead right now because I am so tired.
I love you all! And yes, I do mean ALL of you ;) - Location:Rooom
- Mood:exhausted
 - Music:SHeDAISY
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Stupid Boy - Keith Urban
(Sarah Buxton - Deanna Bryant - Dave Berg)
Well, she was precious like a flower
She grew wild, wild, but innocent
A perfect prayer in a desperate hour
She was everything beautiful and different,
Stupid boy
You can't fence that in
Stupid boy
It's like holdin' back the wind.
Chorus:
She laid her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
She never even knew she had a choice
And that's what happens when the only voice she hears
Is telling her she can't, stupid boy,
Stupid boy.
So, what made you think you could take a life
And just push it, push it around
I guess to build yourself up so high
You had to take her, and break her, down.
Chorus:
She laid her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
She never even knew she had a choice
And that's what happens when the only voice she hears
Is telling her she can't, you stupid boy
Oh, You always had to be right
And now you lost the only thing
That ever made you feel alive.
--- Instrumental ---
Chorus:
She laid her heart and soul right in your hands,yeah
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans,yes you did,
She never even knew she had a choice
And that's what happens when the only voice she hears
Is telling her she can't,you stupid boy
Oh, I'm the same old, same old stupid boy
It took a while for her to figure out she could run
But when she did, she was, long gone, long gone...
Oh, she was gone,
She was long gone,
Oh, yeah she is
--- Instrumental ---
Nobody's ever gonna love me like she loved me
She loved me, she loved me
God please, just let her know
I'm sorry, I'm sorry
I'm sorry, I'm sorry baby,
Yeah, I'm down on my knees
She's never coming back to me
--- Instrumental to fade ---
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But I will come back if you decide not to be like this. I will not be like her
I will wait till you see.
Unless I do realize I can run
But I will run, then turn around and run into you when you realize.
Realize please,
Before I do run,
Oh God make him realize
This
Us
Everything
Fast
I am getting anxious in this skin
I want to get anxious in him
Please God,
I pray hard
I will pray till I bleed
Oh dear Jesus
This is my prayer
I have never prayed so hard for this Lord
I pray every minute for this
I pray Lord
Oh Lord,
Please hear my prayer.
I do not want it to be like this song
Oh Lord
I want it to be a good song
I want it to be a hopefull song
I dont want him to be the Stupid Boy
Because he is not stupid
No, he is perfect in every way Lord.
Mold him Lord
Make him what you want Lord
Pound on his heart Lord
Hand him my heart Lord
Make this happen Lord
Letting go is probably the hardest thing Lord
To not talk to him Lord
Kills me Lord
I want him to chase me Lord
Make him chase me,
Chase me and you know I will not run from him Lord,
Chase us together Lord
Lord Please
I do not want to chase Lord
I want him to choose freely Lord
If it be your will Lord
Oh but please Lord,
Let it be your will...
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So today was...I dunno really lol
I didnt get that good of a nights sleep. I was burning up the whole night. I wanted to close my vent but I was too lazy to get out of my bed. So in the morning I wasnt feeling good because I was so hot! I took a nice shower and that really woke me up. Even though I was fully awake because I slept in till 10:30. Well I went to work at 12 and I had an aweful time. The time went slow and it was only me and Rico basically the whole day. It put a lot of stress on me and I imagine I wasnt the happiest person up at cash. This one guy though told Rico "you need to give this girl a raise, she is awesome" LOL I must have done something right! lol
Anyways. After work I picked up my parents and we went to Old Chiago. That was pretty fun. My mom and I played this game called "Photo Hunt". Its where you have to find the difference in two photos. We got high score! WOOOT!
So now I am being lazy and putting off packing and picking up my room. I really need to because I am leaving tomorrow...in the morning...lol...
I am leaving Colorado...yay! If only for a short while it will be nice to get away.
I didnt find my cowboy today... Maybe tomorrow :) .......... :(
I love ya'll - Mood:lazy
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New years...its 2007 finally! I am...indifferent. I dont know how to be anymore. I dont know anything anymore! What do I do with myself? I feel like I am just walking without a goal and that I see everyone passing by me and I want to say something. I want someone to see me I want someone to stop me and tell me that there is someone who cares about me. I dunno...2007 will be the year. I know it will be. It will be...incredible. I can just imagine....I think :)
Anyways. For New Years I went to bed at 11:30 lol. I went to bed before the New Year...except my mom woke me up at 12 to say in her most excited voice "SUSAN ITS THE NEW YEAR" haha...honestly the older I get the less exciting all these holidays seem to be. But I will carry on excitment for my kids, so that they can enjoy the holidays like I used to...
Wow a song came on just now that brought back tons of memories...*tears well up*
*stops writing to sing*
"Simple as that"
Wow...amazing how one song can make me bawl like a baby.
And only one person will know what that song is.
Or what it means for that matter.
Anyways...back to New Years...
Is it really 2007? Someone pinch me.
I really need to stop listening to Country music...every song describes me so well...its like my life is one big country song and I am listening to it over and over again. Yet, I love country music. I love the vocals, the meanings, and the beats. I love anything to do with the country. I want to move to the country so bad. I want my dream guy to be a country guy. Who will dance with me in a honky tonk, who will ride our horses together, who will love our kids with all his heart, who will yearn to teach them right from wrong, to teach them to cowboy up (or cowgirl up ;) ) To know that life will throw them curveballs but their mother and father would always be there for them. I want my dream guy to hold my hand wherever we go. I want him to sing me country songs. I want him to love his family and I want him to love my family (or attempt, its not easy loving my family lol) I want him to dress like a cowboy, act like a cowboy and woo me like only a cowboy could. I want him to know every song I know and every thing that has happend in my life. I want him to kiss my tears when things arent going right with me or the both of us. I want him to give the best he has, and I want him to own a truck and let me drive it. I want him to want an outdoor wedding, and a small honeymoon. One where we really get to know each other. I want him to cook for me on occasion and I want him to work out on the fields while I am indoors being a housewife. I want a love that will last forever and not just for years...but for a lifetime. I want him to die in my arms or vice versa...or together. I want to watch our kids grow up and smile at him and tell him that we did it. I want him to love God and fear God. I want him to go to church on Sunday mornings and then play with the kids afterwards. I want him to kneel down and pray with me every night. I just....want this....is that so hard? lol Okay maybe my expectations are a little high? But maybe not...If thats what I want, I know there is a guy out there that meets ALL of these expectations. I just have wait for him, but I know he's a comin.
Wow...I really have no idea where that whole thing came from. But I like it...dont you?
Okay I am no leaving...
A list of songs that were playing while I was writing this:
Back of the Bottom Drawer - Chelly Wright
Take These Chains from My Heart - Hank Williams
Simple as That - Lonestar
Deadwood Mountain - Big&Rich
Right in the Palm of Your Hand - Alan Jackson
Weary Blues from Waitin' - Hank Williams
Best Friend - Tim McGraw - Mood:contemplative
 - Music:Country Music
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This time last year I was texting Jon...wanting for him to take me back...waiting a year to be 18...now...I am alone, sad, and just gone. I have done so much this year and it just makes me realize how I have wasted this year...this whole year was a waste. Yes I learned a lot and I mean A LOT of important lessons and I learned also about a lot of things that I probably should have no experience in. I dont want to go into all this BLAH BLAH BLAH oh this year was great (ect. ect ect). I just want to say that hopefully, this next year will BE my best year. I am expecting it to be...I mean...I am finally going to walk down that aisle, I am finally going to live on my own, I am finally going to be me in a new place and really start over. 2007 will for sure be one of the best years. I am almost sure of it.
Well to ring in the new year, I am going to bed...lol boring I know...but I just dont see the point if we do it every 12 months, which really is not that long of a time. If I had a date, this might be more interesting, but I dont...and I have work tomorrow at 8...sooo I cant really "party". Not that I really want to. I sipped a little coke that was on the lid of my tea, from my dads coke...and I almost barfed. Coke reminded me of Whiskey and ew. I will never drink whisky again...at least...I dunno not soon. lol So me wanting to party? Ehhh not really.
2007 brought a lot of highs (ha, in more way than one) and a lot of lows. I think that every year will bring these, but this year was probably the most.
Well anyways.
At least I am safe and everyone I know and love is safe.
Happy New Years Everybody...
Hope your 2006 was way better than mine :)
I love you all!
~Signing out for the last time in 2006~
-Susan- - Mood:contemplative
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Today pretty much went by really super duper fast. Like...I have no idea where the time went by. One hour I am sitting eating breakfast, the next I am clocking out of work and going home. Work was way too easy for my blood today. I was expecting SOME people. Okay...I guess towards the end it got KIND of busy. LOL Anyways.
After work I came home and gave Ashley a call. She hasnt been feeling to well...lots of things going on in her life...and so I thought I would come over and make her feel better. I bought her a couple of "pick me up gifts" which included candles, lip gloss, chocolates, and tiknerbell stickers. She really liked them and I am happy that she felt better.
I dont feel good today...I feel...honestly...I dunno...but its not cool...Empty? Maybe thats what it is...Yeah....Empyt and Alone....
Goddamit! LOL
This sucks sooo bad...*sighs*
Goodnight Ya'll....love ya - Mood:gloomy
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Well...its another fricken Blizzard, at least thats what they said it was going to be like. I woke up to a fresh blanket of snow and calling work to see if I had to come in. Rico said that I did and that I would be staying until 7, which was the time that we closed. It started out really slow. Then around 1 we started to pick up. It was really easy but I was just annoyed with everyone there. So yeah. Long story short...I got out at 8 and waited for my dad in shorts while it was like...10 degrees out! I was cold but not really lol.
Went home...talked to parents then ate some homemade nachos...mmmmm lol
Talking to people online and just...*shrugs* trying my best to keep on moving. This snow really makes me depressed though.
Ummm :)
I guess all I can do is smile through all this...(excuse my language)....shit.
I love you all! - Mood:thoughtful
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So yesterday was a pretty rad day.
I woke up and got ready. I really need a new razor because this one is just not doing it for me. LOL Why am I talking about my shaving habits? LOL okay I am goinn to STOP.
Anyways, after I got ready I went to the bank and was just intending to cash my check, well I guess they suckered me in to get a new account. So Yes, I got a new account...again lol :) I also was going to buy my camera but NO...Wal-Mart was being stupid and I went to 2 different walmarts and there was none of the camera I wanted in stock. I was pretty pissed off. So I went to the mall just intending to walk around and waste some time...yeah...I caved in a bought my dad a really nice picture of ducks and ughhhhhhh so much money! Yeah...went to Randes and saw my friends. We went downtown and shopped and then went to the Cheesecake Factory...YUMMMMY! Rande paid and told us that it was our Bday present! HOW SWEET! :-D We then proceded to the Cherry Creek Mall and spent LOTS of money...well at least I did! :-D Yeahhh that was basically the day...and we went and slept in Ashleys AMAZING house. Its soooo big!
Thats about it.
Today sucked. I went into work and we got SLAMMED....ughhhh I hate when that happens. Me making pizzas while Anna is still rolling out dough and it just falls apart when I put sauce on...not fun at ALL...Then it started to snow and I think we are going to be stuck in Colorado for another 3-5 days. I hope to get out of Colorado and this snow by the 3rd.... BLAHHH lol
Anyways. A Song by SheDaisy that I like lately...
Without a Sound - SheDaisy
I pull the covers 'cross the bed
I tuck away the thoughts in my head
And I live behind closed doors
Knowing I will always love you more
[Chorus:]
And I won't fall apart
I won't lie in pieces on the ground
I won't fall apart
If we say it all without a sound
If we could last another day
Filled with nothing left to say
I will know I've loved my best
Then maybe I could put my heart to rest
[Repeat Chorus]
[Bridge:]
If I could make the sun rise a little too slow
To keep from hearing what I already know
[Repeat Chorus]
I will live behind closed doors
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